blogging, Fear, self-discovery, truth

Why are we here?

I fancied writing a blog today but didn’t have a particular pressing issue so thought I would take a topic listed in one of my first ever posts and spend some time mulling over my response…so here it goes!

Why are we here?

When I was younger, I believed I was here to do God’s work, spreading his love and being his hands and feet on the earth. It was my certainty in life and gave me such purpose. Then I arrived at a point in time where I knew this was no longer a path I could tread with conviction or authenticity and so I walked away from my beliefs and, to a large extent, my life purpose.

It was a really difficult time in my life, especially as the conviction of what I was here on earth to do was no longer present. Yes, I felt free to be me, no longer following something that rang hollow personally, but I felt the foundations of my life crack.

I felt so unsteady and I suddenly didn’t know why I was doing all that I was doing. What was the point in life?

Even now reading these words I feel a bit rattled as I’m again confronted with the fear of not being sure why I am here. Yes, I could say it’s just to experience, to love and to witness the beauty of life. I could also say to leave the world a better place. But the truth is I just don’t know.

Without belief in a God who controls, guides, creates and has a purpose for our lives, I still am unsure why we are here. Why I am here.

But when I think about this more though, I feel the whispers of excitement running through me…the thought of not having guidelines to follow or a purpose to conform to is a different prospect and one which shakes me out of my complacency and daily trudge of following the crowd.

I mean, if we have no reason for being, why am I doing all that I am doing? Why am I blindly following the daily churn of:

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This thinking is partly galvanised by an amazing book I’m reading at the moment called ‘Can Scorpions Smoke‘? which is all about living a truly creative life and daring to step out of living a life of conformity to come up with truly different ways of being, both at work and in my personal life.

I also know this feeling of excitement comes from acknowledging what I know is true deep down inside of me – the knowledge that there are no real rules to follow  – and the calling I feel to be bold, to step out of my comfort zone and explore what a compellingly different reason for being here on this earth might look like.

Yes, it comes with a slight anticipation that life might sometimes be challenging with no rules to follow and no divine call leading my life, but it will also be full of adventure and twists and turns that I could never anticipate.

So, I don’t know why I am here on this earth, but exploring this topic makes me fear the unknown slightly less and, instead, I welcome the endless possibilities with open arms.

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