I’ve been feeling for a little while that my role at work is no longer enough for me, dear friend.
I’ve not shared this online with you until now because some of you may work in the same organisation as me and I just didn’t know what revealing this truth could mean for me. But I believe in being honest, sharing from myself and trusting that you will know that this truth will in no way detract from the effort I put into my job until the next step is revealed to me.
Don’t get me wrong, I love working in local government, getting to serve the public, making a difference on a daily basis, but I’ve felt that I’ve arrived at a point where I’m no longer on an expansive learning journey that I have been up until this point in my career. And that’s not enough for me, I don’t want to stand still…I want more.
I wasn’t sure what to do about this when the realisation came over me – I’m still not sure what to do if I’m honest with you. I’ve been mulling over the question of ‘what’s next?’ for a while now.
I’ve been writing daily in a journal for the past couple of months about what my ideal job would be to energetically bring opportunities to me and this is what I’ve discovered:
- I want to manage a team and make a difference in their lives
- I want to continue to be in a role that is varied and intellectually challenging
- I want to have deep connections at work, like the connections I mulled over in my recent post
As much as these realisations are helpful, I still felt a bit lost with the ‘what next’ question.
It was only when I was sat on a bench in Wales whilst some friends were hurling themselves down a quarry (yes, really! Look at the photo below!) on a recent weekend that this thought hit me…
I can’t control my position at work or magic up a team of people to manage (although I can be proactive in progressing if I really desire this).
I can’t make a difference to the work I am given (although again I can put myself in a position to receive as much variety of work as possible).
But I do have control in fostering deep connections – juicy, full, authentic, honest relationships with the people I work with.
Connections that make my heart sing.
This transported me, dear friend, from a place of ‘stuckness’ and powerlessness to the surety of knowing that I am able to actively increase my feeling of joy at work and take a new expansive journey of courage, truth and love until a role change comes my way.
It made me aware that I have choices…we all have choices, even if it’s just the attitude we decide to take to our own circumstances.
And you know what, dear friend?
These really small decisions about our attitude can make the world of difference.